A twisted mess of conflicting desires. We want what we want until we get it than we wonder why we wanted it to begin with. So often the wanting is much more fulfilling than the getting because the having is always transitory and the losing is inevitable.
He lied, he smirked, and he smugly testified about certain “off the cuff” texts he doesn't remember writing but still explained what the texts meant. He denied that his personal anti-Trump bias affected his work because he said the texts were sent out of his “deep sense of patriotism” and nothing else.